I wasn't sure what part of the forum to put this in. I don't have a diagnosis, but I have many symptom of cptsd, I was bullied throughout most of my life, and have been seeing therapists for it for a few years. I also have bipolar II, social anxiety, and I'm a recovering amphetamine addict.

I've been getting extremely angry a lot lately. And it could be at anyone or anything. When I take one of our dogs on a walk, he pulls all over the place, and I can become so worked up I feel like beating him. I feel disgusting for having these thoughts, like I'm someone who's just that low.

I guess I have a big inferiority complex. I've been isolated for 4 years, I have body image problems, I feel like an ugly pathetic loser.

There seems to be so many very minor things that set me off.

Now I'm taking a class at a community college. I have to research an artist, write a paper on him, and paint a painting in his style. Lately I'm worried that I can get through that. Sometimes I'm too afraid to do anything out of a fear of getting triggered.

I don't know what to think right now. I'd just like some feedback or support. When I first came to this website I felt an incredible sense of community and connection, like we are all in this together. I cried over that. I think I'm desperate for that feeling, yet I can't demand it.