hi all,
i've always been kindo've spontaneous, within my own boundaries...
So far every anti-depressant i've been on i've one day decided 'That's it, i've had enough!' and cold turkey them. (which i know is unwise)
However i've always got by... even off 100mg sertraline and 40mg fluoxetine (respectivley) and both long term...
By got by, i mean; got through..... Sertraline was particularily tough due to it's short half life.
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So, this time round i tried my usual; jump off my SSRI medication without informing my doctor or anything.. but was hit by some of the worst anxiety iv'e had in years (prior therapy)
and i simply couldn't take it, so i went back onto my 20mg a day of Fluoextine.
Now, i have started a taper of; one day on, one day off.
Once again, i haven't informed my doctor.... and my keyworker is on leave...
but i'm doing ~o.k...... - definatley not brilliant though.
I'm now on day 8 of my 1 day on 1 off regime... and i remember my doctor suggesting that i go for 1 week of this. Then move to 1 day on 2 days off for the next week.... and finally 1 day on: Three days off.. and then stop.
But, i really feel the withdrawal bad this time round... i really don't know how i managed to cold turkey in the past...
I feel really out of it. So i've postponed any further reduction untill my body get's used to my current regime.
Is this the best way to go about tapering? (not telling the doctors aside)
I might ask for liquid fluoextine.... as i really don't like the idea of taking some, on alternate days..... - despite it's long half life...
it seems like your body doesn't know whether it's coming or going (prozac wise)
i'd much rather have gone down to - 10mg a day.... instead of 20mg over two days..
and follow suit with small reductions in daily dosage untill i can jump off a very low dosage.
how long will i be feeling the 'discontinuation' W/D ?
i suppose it's hard to answer,,, but i really hope it's not months....
i'm fed up of withdrawals... diazepam, anti-depressants, nicotine, alcohol, opiates...
all within the last year....
i'm determined to be free from dependence on substances...
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ugh,,, and i'm going to be awake all night.... ;(
i managed to sleep from miday untill 10:00PM tonight.... so i shall look forward to sunrise.
(at least the weathers been GLORIOUS in the U.K last few days...)
hope it stays that way.
Regards,
Circles5