does god enjoy seeing people surfer

is this a joke for him..something that amuses him??

i am doing all in my power to generate inner peace of mind

but its useless

i live hell every day

those who have followed my thread know my problem and history so i won't bother explaining it again..i don't feel like it anyway

if people..not even family can understand what if really means to be depressed that i expect from a higher being such as god to understand and have compassion/mercy on his creation

why am i to do when i discover that not even god cares

why should i continue to live this daily hell cycle??