Maybe a strictly CBT T isn't right for you. Sometimes they can feel cold and very rigid in their process. It sounds like CBT T isn't working out well for you. Is now a good time to start "shopping" for a new T again? I can imagine it would be hard to maintain a relationship when you only get to talk to someone on the phone for 20 min every two weeks. Maybe that relationship has changed and it is time to move on. Just my thoughts but I hope you are able to get through this.