I know. There are many things I have to do to get healthier. My sleep pattern has been backwards for most of the past 6 or 7 years (I've gone to sleep early in the morning and wake up in the afternoon or sometimes even the evening) I smoke a pack of cigarettes a day, and do not eat very well and usually only one meal per day. I used to walk quite often, but I've barely been on a walk since the fall. My lifestyle is very bad and it's probably making me feel sick. My medication, though, was making me feel very empty and indifferent, which I think affected my lifestyle. And feeling this way definitely makes me want to stay home a lot. I really want to fix the things that are affecting my health, but I find it hard to make positive changes living with who I am right now (I live with a family member who is not very encouraging to say the least). Fortunately I will be moving out sometime early in the summer.

Does anyone know how I would stop talking to this guy? We are taking a break until the weekend. The problem now is that I've told him so many times that I don't want to continue talking that he doesn't believe me or he tries to convince me why we should keep talking or even makes me feel guilty, saying things like, "You've proved to me that I can't trust any girl" or "You don't care about my feelings or what I want." I even told him that I don't want to continue because of my mental health and he said "please, we can figure this out." I think this might be because not many people are interested in dating him and I'm the only person who has expressed any interest recently. The bad thing is that he knows I have no close family or friends, so he may think I'm not going anywhere for that reason too.