This is embarrassing to talk about in front of others so I have yet to tell my T this. In fact, I have lied to her saying I am dead sexually. I have a high sex drive that is handled by self simulation. The antidepressant I take now does not take away my sex drive though it very frustratingly disrupts orgasm. I desire to be with someone but when ever I'm actually with someone, I get triggered. The smell, site, and feel of a man up close is absolutely repulsive and triggering. Especially the sounds a man makes during sex.Woman is no different either. I feel so frustrated that I desire sex but can't do it.