The last week has been getting worse. My life so far, I've been in a boxing ring. Each time I get knocked down its getting harder to stand back up again, to find my feet.

I keep getting back up but how much longer I can do this... I don't know. I don't care.

I'm drained. I don't see things getting better. I'm just waiting for the knockout now, some peace from all this. Will I repeat this to my doctor? No. I'm sick of this merry go round. I've had enough.