Finally leaving the medical hospital next Monday or Tuesday after almost 6 wks for issues from my ED and dreading the thought of the next step. Theoretically, am going to go to Johns Hopkins inpatient program within the next week or so, but I'm dreading the idea so much. I don't even know if I can handle the idea of being back in the hospital AGAIN, this time, likely for longer.
Has anyone else done inpatient or residential treatment when they really didn't want to? How did it turn out? Was it still helpful?
I feel like all I'd get out of it right now is some weight gain and I wouldn't purge or overexercise for however long I was there. I just don't know if I'm ready to give all those behaviors up and I feel like I might just go right back to where I started....If I don't do something, I'm going to die. I get told that on a daily basis, multiple times a day, but I'm just so tired of it all and I just don't know if I have the strength I'll need to do this whole treatment thing right now.
Can anyone else relate?