Thanks for your support guys. I know this all cycles, I've just had enough of all these ups and downs in my life.

I have nothing. I'm so financially screwed it's not funny. Working is also entirety at the mercy of my mood. I had it all... A great job, financially stable and happiness. I was happy.

Now all I have is this disorder that keeps taking from me. Lies to me. Causes me to make poor life choices, get in trouble with the police.

Im thinking of just skipping my appointments. Even with meds, nothing is changing. I'm still miserable and broken. Seeing my psychiatrist yet again isn't going to change that, or anything.