I dont seem able to feel much, and the little i can feel is almost always on the negative range (boredom, irritation, dissatisfaction, detachment, disgust, tiredness, sadness etc). but always in a mild way.

i dont think i somehow block out the positive feelings, i just dont seem able to FEEL them.

there are a few things that do give me some pleasure (eating, my favorite shows, my cats, sports) but they feel more like a pause from the bad rather than something intrinsecally good.

this is causing me to lose my boyfriend. i dont want to lose him but i cant pretend happiness when i dont feel it. i do try but it feels like im performing and i cant do that all the time.

im losing my mind. what is wrong with me and how can i make myself feel (especially the positive feelings for him)?

any input will be greatly appreciated. thanks.