I feel like I have trusted him with that in the past we have actually had a few fights and I have pushed myself to come back thinking maybe it was all my fault and other things and I just don't know if I can keep doing it especially since he knows I have been feeling VERY bad lately I feel like he just doesn't want to deal with me. I also have A LOT of trouble speaking as I often get to scared and pretty much go mute and I have tried very hard to speak and be open and tell him things but I just feel like I keep getting slapped in the face over and over again. I just don't get it the counsellor before him told me she hated me and that I was annoying and others laughed at me when I tried to explain something very complicated and I just feel like I am wasting my time and that no one really wants me around.