Hey man I know how that feels and I think more people have been there than you know. But as cliche as this sounds, it really will pass. Sometimes people, like myself and maybe you as well, get down for a while like this because we start to feel like nothing more than a martyr for others in life. But it really won't always be that way. I know that and so should you, because with all of these terrible feelings in life also come happiness and acceptance and comfort and bliss. Don't throw all of that away when you're in a slump, as tempting as it may be. Stick it out and work on yourself and your own well being and happiness....some times what you're longing for only seems to Co e around once you've come to a a place in life where you're just more Co for table on your own. It shines through and attracts others to your life. It'll be okay.