Hi lilly, believe me, I've been there. I was afraid that the therapist was going to tell me I was really gay and I would get used to the thoughts, but that was not the real issue. The real issue was me thinking there was some substance to the thoughts. I knew the thoughts were strange and didn't make sense. I've had many girlfriends even before the onset of my OCD and I've never desired a same-sex encounter. It just didn't interest me. What really made me realize that the thoughts are just "thoughts" was that everybody, even people without OCD have bizarre thoughts from time to time. It's just that a non-sufferor is able to let them go easier. Your head just picked this subject to obsess about. Do your research and I hope you get the courage to see someone who knows about OCD. Here are some resources that helped me: www.ocdonline.com, google the name Dr. Fred Penzel, he has some great articles about OCD even specific to what you may be going through. Try reading this http://www.brainphysics.com/yourenotgay.php. It really made me realize I was dealing with a anxiety issue and not a sexuality issue. But you have to want to get over this. You have to stay committed to beating this. I was just fed up with it and I wanted my life back. That's what I did and I know you can too. Good luck.