Someone else, from the UK put into words almost exactly how I've been feeling (amongst other things... ...
How the black dog of Depression has been with me/following me every day for the past 2 plus years
"Just to remind me that I'll never fly
Just to pretend that I won't scream when I die"

Just to remind me that I'll "never" be "good enough" to achieve any "potential" I may have once had Thank you

"If my life was as long as the moon
If my life lasted only one day...."

GROWL

sorry for the "negativity" ...... Today I saw some light for the first time in so long, NO thanks to those IRL who love to label and blame and then attempt to "justify" that abuse