Welcome to PC. Hope you find the support you are looking for on here.
I just wanted to say that I was in a very difficult place 5 years ago and recently I have been able to look back and realise that I have made good progress, a little wobbly at times, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Can definitely relate to memory loss and getting lost in my head (I have been known to get lost when out walking).

Soup