T, why am I having such a hard time letting you go this week? I can't stop thinking about you and I want some more contact with you. I'm finding it painful. I've had a dull headache all day and I think it's because I can't move forward from the appointment.

I wish I could be part of your life. I wish I was able to come to your place and just hang out with you. The worst part is that I can tell that I'm going to start crying again but it's just going to make my headache worse. I feel so alone when I am suffering like this.

I will be so glad when I finally decide that I have suffered enough and I let you go. "Figuratively," of course.