I had a meltdown today. I feel so overwhelmed. School, work, mental health. I can't find a good balance. It's really hard to try to be healthy physically and mentally when a lot of times I have 15 hour days.

I panicked about my coworkers talking badly about me. Then I felt selfish since I know I'm not really worth talking about, but I live with that constant paranoia. I know people gossip. I see people gossiping about others all of the time. I just assume it's about me. It's really hard. I don't have friends anymore because of this paranoia and anxiety.