i often feel the same way, abs. i know my problems are far smaller than others, but they are MY problems and they hurt ME. i wish for once my life would go well. i sometimes get glimmers then it's all taken away. i feel frustrated and cursed. why can't i just have this, this one thing that would make me happy. please why can't i have this? it kills me and i'm finding it damn hard to bounce back too. i try to remember the good things, but unfortunaetly they are overshadowed and outnumbered by the bad. but i keep trying. there's not much else i can do. i guess i am always clinging to hope that it will be worth the wait. but this week is too hard for me. damn, last week was good, despite the awful headcold. hang in there.