Lol, nah. I think she just graduated from college. But I don't have much of a choice in who I see since I don't work enough hours to qualify for insurance through my job right now, and am on Medicaid until I graduate and am able to get back up to full-time. She's not bad--she went to Michigan State, which is where I'm planning on going for my bachelor's--but she's just very young and new.

Pretty much every T I've ever been to just listens, you know? I don't think, at least in recent years, any of them have given me any advice on how to break patterns. I get so frustrated with them because I'll go for months and months and just talk. And then we get to a point where they're like, "We have to do a goal evaluation. We haven't really made progress on the goal we initially agreed to work on." And I'm like...but you ask me what I want to talk about and so I talk! If you want me to do something, you need to tell me what to do! My last T and I terminated our relationship because of this--because I didn't know what she wanted from me. I could tell she was frustrated with me, and I wasn't getting anything from her. But if you don't give me a goal or a purpose or direction than I will just sit for an hour and talk...because I feel that this is what I'm supposed to do. Sorry. That was off topic... but do you know what I mean?

I suppose I can remember one of the last two T's saying that I just need to get out there and try, and I just kind of laughed. I was like, "Yeah, well someone has to actually want to be around me for that to work." Or vice-versa. I can't date someone I don't want to be around, either. And there aren't many guys I really want to spend time with, either. To be fair. It's not all them.