I notice a lot with true Tourette's also have OCD to a lesser or bigger degree, but I rarely see people with OCD having tics. I sort of feel unusual here.
My first tic episode happened when I was 13. Actually I had a bout of tics at around 8 but I think it disappeared quite fast. But at 13 I was ticking more and I did for a full year. After that, I developed OCD.
My own take on it is that it happened because my parents forced me to suppress tics. It caused a lot of tension. From age 14 I have OCD. My OCD course has been steady and worsening up to age 24 or 27 or so, and medication had to do with getting better.
Tics more came and went. I don't have Tourette's, but I have tourettism, I have both motor and phonic tics (although no verbal tics, some people think I do, but I have verbal stims). Motor tics can be jerking, a feeling of not getting comfortable, a minor real itch turning into a tic or stretching. I actually got harmed in minor ways doing this.
My third bout of tics came as I started on synthroid, oddly enough, when I was 32 or so. Never fully went away but wasn't so bad. At 38 I got a strep infection and ticking flared. Since then I have tics off and on and I am in my 40s now.
I don't hate the tics the way I hate OCD. OK now I don't have it full blown and it is bothering but still it is something I can live with. I can sometimes even turn an OCD impulse into a tic. Tics are less complicated, they never messed up my life the same way. They never followed me in thought like OCD did. I could then and there tic to perfection as when it comes to OCD once I felt anxiety a full year for a "wrong" I did. So in a way I get a little teed that I wasn't allowed my tics so I could avoid the OCD.
IDK, it might have come anyway.
I never talked with docs about this to any degree as I always had more urgent things. Still I can't but wonder what this IS and if I'm completely alone.
Thanks for reading.
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