Lex,

If you are having urges to hurt yourself that you are finding difficult to fight, then it may be a very good idea to go to the hospital. Do you have a therapist or psychiatrist that you could call? I know when I needed to be admitted, it helped me a lot to talk to my T and hear her tell me that she thought it was a good idea, too.

And try not to think of this as something that will worry people...think of it as a way to keep yourself safe. You're giving people a lot more reason to worry if you don't get the help you need right now.

Take care.
Jo