Hi eden, if the 5 people you mean are professionals you've been to and you're counting in the counselor you talked about..........let's take that number straight back down to 4, because from what she's said/her attitude, I sure aren't counting her as a professional!!!
And sometimes it can be a process of working through a few professionals and giving it time to make progress.
Just hoping your psychiatrist isn't so bad when you manage to see him..........I know your family and their views aren't making that easy for you, but it's you and your well-being that matters at the end of the day, so whatever appointments you need........well push for them.
And if you can work on real clearly telling him what's going on for you........the more information you can put out there the better.
And the psychologist.........maybe you don't need to necessarily see him as the one who should be able to help..........maybe he isn't right now, or maybe he's only going to be able to give you bits which might be able to help a little (and every bit counts!!) because there is more support out there too, starting with..........there are some amazing people on here!!!
On here you can get understanding, empathy, support, information, inspiration........so much!!! Like I said, some amazing people around!!!
So every avenue available for help, hey??
And you were thinking you were undeserving.........you're not!!! Really you're not!!!

Alison