Hi eden, if you can do you think you could make a sooner appointment?? Even if you're making that yourself??
And: "i dont know how to push for things i never have and probably never will......." eden, you're pushing for help/support on here, right now
And that is awesome!!! I know it might not be anywhere near as easy IRL, but you have got it in you........sounds like you are stronger than you think
So keep on trying, hey??
But the way you're feeling...........if nothing else then
Alison