I am self-diagnosed manic, I have an extremely high sex drive I am impulsive in certain ways. Lately I have been having a lot of these off-the-wall sexual fantasies with transsexuals. I ended up Encountering a transsexual whom I have been speaking with for over a year. We engaged in oral sex, we also had **** sex as well. He used a condom and the condom did not break. Nor did he ejaculate. He swears up and down he's clean and actually got angry with me, because I keep accusing him of having HIV (paranoia). I'm worried that some how his left over semen was on top of the condom (from his hands putting it on) when he penetrated me. I am overwhelmed with guilt and would never do such a thing again as in its not something I liked at all. I keep thinking that all gay/transsexuals are infected with HIV. Even using protection I am still freaking out, it's only been 5 days since this encounter. I had sex with my ex recently as well who's a girl (I'm straight, was just curious) and I used a condom which she thought was unusual. Anyways the condom broke now I have nobody....

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