your story is similiar to mine. my dad passed away on february 14th, 2014 and i was his caregiver for 10 years. we'd been together all my life and now that he's gone i'm just destroyed. for me it's not getting any easier. i'm having lots of health issues and
i just can't enjoy things because he's not here. i do talk to him all of the time
and sometimes buy things that i know he would've enjoyed. i just can't get
past it and just want to be with him again. life has stopped for me and
i've tried to get back into the swing of things, but it just doesn't work
anymore. all my friends have stopped coming around and i pretty
much stay away from people now. your post was the first time
that i've read about someone going through what i'm going
through. it seemed like i was the only one.

hope all is well with you