<font color="brown">Everything is up and down this week has been rough. I've had bouts of depression and my lightbox is at home and i've been here at my BFs house since Saturday. Today is better because it's hot and sunny, but there were times that felt like I was slipping away, crying, feeling worthless, then thinking about the abuse, rape and sexual assualts... just hasn't been a good week for me, not to mention stress with finding a job that i'm scared to get... It's getting to be very frustrating. </font>