There's a whole new pharmaceutical treatment approach that seems to be having quite a lot of success for some people. From what you describe, it sounds like it might be ideal for you. It's a well-known drug, one used for many years to control blood pressure, the beta-blocker propranolol (Inderal).

Apparently, one of the experiences that makes PTSD so difficult to manage is the very nature of the experience of being triggered. The brain experiences the triggered event as a new trauma, which can reinforce the older experiences. We all know what that's about.

However, if the beta-blocker is taken while the triggered experience (or a new trauma, for that matter) is still active, it suppresses the brain's ability to store the activated experience. The physical calming effect of the med gets stored along with the new memory, so it suppresses the activation in future.

Propranolol is often used by people with stage fright, or those who have trouble giving speeches. Many people who used to need this drug to perform find that they don't need it any more, and the explanation has always been that all they needed was experience without consequences. It seems it's more than that, though, as the absence of physiological activation is a big part of retraining the brain.

Lar

P.S. Propranolol is very inexpensive.