You'd think it would save a lot of heartache, but it's what i want most in life, to be attached to someone, to be loved and all that and I am terrified of it. It causes a lot of heartache.

And I wonder if there was some type of attachment because I kept going back, but then little kids go back to their abusers and battered women go back to their abusers. I don't know. It's weird.