I didn't need meds, I don't ever want them again. I saw my old pill pusher psychologists. He was the same ol, don't give a **** about your feelings you need drugs type of therapist.

He let me out, I was not suicidal as they made me to be, because I chose not to be. I made it very clear. I was originally about to hurt myself. I was very stressed and acted in public like I never would. My feelings were very hurt, because I don't open up to anyone especially females I don't know and don't trust. This happened from a bunch of things. I didn't tell them what's wrong I kept it to myself. I told the officer and he was super nice to me. I had lots of support. I am thankful for that, I went to the hospital from my therapists suggestion.

Going back to work being with that co worker who didn't help and started the initial trigger. I'll be cold to her, I'll act friendly. I'll just ignore her like she isn't there and ultimately shut her out completely. I'm proving that I have no feelings in which I don't, that my words have substance that I don't want to be her friend, she seems fake like everyone else. That she needs to back away from me. That I am here to do my job don't bother me, and I'm looking to work somewhere else. That's all.