Thanks guys. I had a good talk with my boyfriend who is helping me realise that it's not the only option right now. I also tried to speak to my psychiatrist but she blamed my feeling down and close to self-harm on my new medication and that it'd pass. >_> Ah well, I've got enough will power to not do it, doesn't change the fact the thought is constantly in my mind.

Thank you all though, it's nice to read your replies - cheers me up.