i feel like crap. physically.

i saw T today. then i went to work. the managers called me into the office. i got so scared. i knew i was in trouble. i went in there and he said that i am being written up bc i gave a customer their check back with their receipt. he said it happened on thursday. he made me sign this paper saying what i did. iwas so scared my hand was shaking. he said its not a big deal just be more careful. but guys, i was really scared. after i got out of there i realized i didnt work on thursday. i wanted to talk to him again but customers kept coming into my line. i was getting agitated and anxious and paranoid. i texted T telling him what was going on. i thought they were doing something on purpose to get me in trouble even though i didnt do it. well then 2 cops came in the store and asked to talk to the manager. i thought they were there to arrest me. i felt electricity all thru my body, i felt on the verge of a panic attack. i got so paranoid and scared.... they went in the back with the manager. i texted T againabout the cops and how scared i was. T responded and said to try to calm down and its ok. after they went in the back i started to calm down because they didnt talk to me or look at me. turns out they were there for the bagger. anyway after i clocked out i told the manager i wasnt working thursday. so how could i have done that. he said it happened on wednesday. wtf. he said they had me on video doing it. oh well whatever. im not scared or paranoid anymore. im home now and off for 3 days. thank god. guys i got so scared, i didtn know what to do. it was so overwhelming. im glad T texted me back and im glad i started to chill out.

anyway ive felt sick all day and i still feel sick. i havent ate all day and i have no appetite. i thought i had a fever at work. todays been rough....