At the moment, I'm a raging *****... I don't know if it's the stuff I finally started to directly process in t, or the constant low-grade flashbacks, or the need to battle sh urges all day, but I'm in such a mood... I want to do a lot of damage right now. I know I shouldn't, but... it would feel so good (even if only for a moment, and even if it was followed by incredible guilt and shame)...

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