What made you get admitted in the first place if you don't mind me asking? I had a recent blood pressure reading of 170/90 and that was just in a GP's office. I was feeling anxious but not as scared as you would have been in the hospital. I think high blood pressure runs in my family.

Yeah I don't know what to do about the crush, unless I find another distraction. I don't think I'll be able to prevent myself from at least trying to drop hints to the psychologist. In the last session while we were talking about my relationship issues I asked him hypothetically if he would go out with an avoidant. I can be surprisingly forward like that sometimes, like a rare burst of confidence. I guess I can do that because I feel safe since I always have a backup plan and only say things like that when I know that it could have different interpretations and I can make myself look innocent if it backfires.