My t doesn't know it ... but, yes, sometimes she takes my breath away. She has unique and brilliant hair, and I've found myself starting to look for, and be attracted to, others who have similar hair. I don't think it's ET either, just an intense emotional attraction. I don't think of her in a physical way (I could never think of her in a physical way - a boundary I couldn't cross), but my heart melts when I do think of her. She is sweet, compassionate, understanding, kind, soft, warm - I guess all the things you'd want in a mother. But I could never share that with her. No one knows. I'm ashamed of it and could never bring it up.

But, yes, I do uncomfortably think she is gorgeous, but I also think a lot has to do with her personality.

So I do understand your embarrassment and the feeling you're talking about.