tbh ive never been obsessed with money like most other people seem to be. i dont want to be rich, i'd like enough to cover what i need/want but since i know ill always be unemployed i feel like i only really need money to keep other companys happy, like for my food, electric etc, thats all i need money for to buy what i need, yea its difficult but i know theres no other way to get better money so i just accept this...

i want to come off the meds i dont really feel like i need them anyway and there just messing things up more than they already were. i wont get anymore after this box is finished. for now im still trying to relieve some stress by getting stuff done, like the cleaning. once thats done im sure ill feel like a huge weight has been lifted...

also i dont have a partner and even when i get up i sometimes still feel stuck in some weird... well i dont know what to call it. all i know is i hate it, ive always had problems getting up in the morning but its never been this bad!