trying to sort thru what's my stuff, what's not my stuff. i really think it's all my stuff--but my T said that the way the mother treated me is really HER stuff and even tho i have to deal with the affect it had on me, the bottom line is i don't own it.

i'm so confused---how can it NOT be my stuff???
the a*use to me and what i saw and couldn't stop IS my stuff--right????
all the bad that happened to me and all the issues i have now are mine---right???

can't figure out what to do when i connect with a feeling---am i supposed to let myself react, feel or what?? right now i just hide from it. i know it's there, but i just won't touch it. i just don't understand----am i stupid or something??????
naomi