As soon as I see clouds coming in which is unlikely, I'll smoke that last Cuban cigar cuz I'm an informal patient today after over 2 months. It's grown on me which I was trying to prevent and also leave, stop my meds etc.. I'll be leaving soon and can't really comprehend how glad I am to be here and then leave.

That walk outside just now makes me happy to be alive. This woman and I were walking around the hospital in opposite directions and I said I'll take a pic of the old hospital. It's cold outside but calm and said good morning when I usually don't talk to people and I have her respect from when I asked her for a smoke when I didn't have any but I have some now and still say hi or good morning.

Or just the Vyvanse kicking in.

I found it funny that I was on 4 antipsychotics and 6+ other meds but I was patient and stuck it out but I wouldn't survive in any other psychiatric hospital now that I've been here..