Nina, I am so sorry you are feeling down about your birthday and being alone. Sometimes people just don't follow through or hold grudges.

The biggest change we can make is a change of attitude. Maybe a gratitude list will be in order to chart what there is to be thankful for. A friend of mine spent their birthday volunteering their time at a food pantry and they really felt appreciated.

I am wishing you a wonderful birthday in advance. Thanks for sharing your story.