Here is what we discussed today about my mental state and her son...

Happiness is one sided.
Apparently this is true. You don’t need a man to be happy, but choose to have a man in your life because it is what you want. You do a lot for me that I can never repay. I have issues with depression and PTSD. I did not ask for this. It feels like a hell on earth, and there is nothing I can do to control it. I want certain things that I cannot have because I committed to try to make you happy. I’ve failed at making myself happy. I have lost all of my friends, and replaced them with new friends. Those are your friends. I am almost completely unfamiliar with them, and I feel awkward and out of place. My father grows older every day, and I am never there for him, because I am either at work or on the other side of the world attending to a relationship. I have stopped going to the meetings that keep me sane. I am alienated from my church, and I don’t speak to many people anymore. I have spent time driving 45 minutes one way to endure screaming, yelling, and crying from your son. My nerves are shot every time I do this. Your happiness at the expense of my mental illness is not fair to either of us. My life spent trying to fix the broken ruins of a failed marriage is taking its toll on my state of mind. I have overcome alcohol and drugs in an effort to save my own life. It is the first time in my life that I have stood up for myself and made a determined effort to change. I felt myself being pulled in all directions, and an innate sense of duty to try and bring happiness to those around me. I have failed to look after my own mental state, and have allowed myself to be pulled into an environment that was very trying to my mental well-being. I am not trying to make you sad, but I cannot find my own peace and happiness if my environment is detrimental to my mental health. I may be headed in the direction of being a hermit or a recluse. I know that this is not healthy either. What I do know is that I must do what is healthy for my mental state; a realm that is completely out of my control.