Being in a room full of people will also be horrible for me too. I can see myself having a flashback there. I don't know that I can sit in a small room full of people I don't know.

I was homeless for 6 months over a Colorado winter due to a physical illness that landed me in the ICU for nearly 2 weeks, hospital for longer after that. My husband got laid off from work during that time, and we had no income. I had a superbug that attacked my lungs, then my kidneys and liver. Anyway, with nothing to fall back on, we ended up homeless a month and a half later. "Things" happened while homeless, and some of those things were in a not well controlled warming center. I used to be great with people, did well with groups. Public speaking? No problem. Now, stick me in a room with a group of people, and all, well, heck breaks loose in my mind.

Also, as a kid, I was taught by my parents to never speak to a mental health professional, taught that they'll change your words around to mean other than what you actually said, etc. That popped into my mind both times I've gone so far, and it sticks. That's when the anxiety/panic kicks in the worst.