I almost lost it. A friend and I went for a smoke and sat in the sunlight for a bit so I feel calmer. I've never been as pissed off and agitated at the staff since I was admitted. They saw me shaking violently and asked if I was ok. I said I was anxious almost in panic so they would leave me alone. Hahah? I don't get anxiety but I did this time and it brings back memories of panic. What if I went psychotic? They'll put me in the side room. They take my phone away because I couldn't do groups when the injection was wearing off because of negative symptoms getting really bad so why not? That's what I get for having schizophrenia. I didn't smash the charger but I will later and then the nurses will be baffled by how calm I would be haha they won't because I'll just be another schizophrenic "out of control" - needs to be locked up like an animal and tackled to the ground on code white, blue or what ever the *. It's almost the same as the guy on youtube that was smoking tobacco out of a bong in public. The police tackled him because they thought it was weed. WEED. Idk though because my agitation is instant. I tried calming down before I cause destruction and usually I don't do that so I'm proud of myself.. It's the max I can be proud or even care about myself. I'm doing better so I'll let it go but that really got to me that I was a bit deluded on the max injection of Abilify but I guess I should wait until it stabilizes in the blood..