Hey, I want you to know firstly that you have no need to feel ashamed and alone. Not at all..
You have definitely come to the right place. I am new myself and have found it is wonderful.

I am currently in treatment and I know many people who abuse laxatives as a means of purging. I have done so myself on multiple occasions. I must tell you though there are severe consequences of abusing laxatives which I am sure you already know.. But
Please know you are never alone and you are so much more than any bad feeling, any bad thing that happens to you. Be kind to yourself, I am still learning. It is the hardest thing but that is what we are all here for am I right?

Keep going, I am always here if you need to chat. Give me a shout xo