On the one hand I will be starting a new job in two weeks. I am excited and happy about that. On the other hand I am nervous. Maybe two years of trauma from my present job has beaten me down. I still have so many self doubts. Yet I passed the interview.

I have to take several tests. The first is a written test for my CDL. (Commercial Drivers License). I also have to pass a DOT physical. My blood pressure has to be good for the physical in order to pass. I am also concerned about the physical because I have been on wellbutrin for depression, and amitriptyline for migraine headache prevention. Not to mention maxalt and/or fioricet to treat an active migraine. I am worried that those meds might keep me from passing a DOT physical. I will not lie and decline to list these meds. For one thing they do a drug test. I don't take any medicine other than what my GP prescribed. Of course I do not drive if I have to take the maxalt or fioricet. Another thing, I have not had any migraines since I applied for this new job.

What if I can't pass the physical or the driver tests. I think I can pass most of the written tests.

I don't want any more disappointments. It is time for life to change and improve. I have already given two weeks notice to the office of doom. I really don't want to have myself where I have no job. But I also have to take a chance to change my circumstances.

Just a bit nervous. I keep reciting Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."