I am also in that situation. I am currently in big trouble at work and I know quite a bit of it is my fault. Once I was diagnosed with major depression I realized that was what was causing me to be paralyzed when I faced certain things at work. I'm working on overcoming that now with meds and therapy but in the meantime I am in a whirlwind of drama I am trying to stay out of but is all about me - and that's not my perception (I wish it was), it's reality. I have become the test case of how to remove certain privileges from employees. It's embarrassing, humiliating, and not making my depression better. I get a little better then all this comes down on me again like the sky falling and it's all anxiety and depression all over.