so i find it very easy to physically connect with someone, often a really close friend, making an odd friends with benefits kind of situation. a large part of me wishes for a real relationship but i mostly shy away from showing or acknowledging any feelings for people. this hasn't caused issues up until recently, and i've been a complete *** and i've hurt a lot of people close to me.
how do i reconcile these two completely split parts of myself?
i mean, i know the fear of a relationship is pretty normal, but how do i overcome that to be happy?
any tips?
thanks!