I was invited to a track meet to see my girlfriend's oldest son compete, but I could not find the location even with a GPS. Through lots of texting, I finally made it, but felt like a total idiot after all was said and done. Ended up getting a wicked sunburn after 2 hours. Felt horrible, but attended a get together that evening at my girlfriend's house. 15-20 people including kids and her out-of-control 6 year old son. I felt awful all evening, and decided to lay down. Her son in the next room screaming and banging on everything; my head felt like it would explode. Finally, I had to excuse myself and leave. I felt like a total tool bag. I need peace and quiet to get through these episodes of major depression. I'm not trying to isolate, I just want to feel better. Letting myself get all worked up, and I am wondering if I should even be in this relationship, or seek peace for my own mental state. Today was a rough day that could have been avoided.