Aaahhhh, and we're back.
Told T how I felt like I weren't ready for the break.
And how I struggled with feelings of Somebody having died, and how 2 days before today I felt the connection stopped.
T said, so the break represents your birth mother just going before you were ready and coming back after a break is you going to your new family where there was no connection.
I told her about how in my head I was imagining telling her how It has been and her sadistically enjoying it and me raging, verses her listening with concern when I felt I would run out in that scenario. But now I'm here, neither of them are an option. It doesn't feel like I need to do any of those.
T said, yes thinking in our head and reality are different things.
I than looked at T, done a double take and said, are your glasses purple?
T.Laughed and said, they are new and have a blue tint on them for uv protection and you are the first person to have noticed that!
Just me having an 'aspie' moment. See it, say it lol