I know that fear of not wanting to get outside, and the need to focus on what's in your head, while thinking that this must be done in the most tranquil place, i.e. home. I enjoy pain for some reason, perhaps because I want some attention, could that be the same case to you? If it is, then go share your pain with the therapist, talk as much s you want, then you'll feel alive again. Just don't be shy in front of the T (you might not be though), it's his/her job to listen to people. Get up, and face the world with your awesome inner self!!