My mood has been awesome lately. I think its partially the nice weather and partially that things have just been going good in my life for a while. However, I think believing everything is grand is a little bit of magical thinking. I've been counting my daily cals and they've been low, and I'm not willing to add more. Two weeks ago I was weighed at my docs and there was no loss, but I think there were some other factors contributing to my weight that morning. I'm so scared to gain, but I know, I KNOW if I loose more, there's a big chance I'll be hospitalized. Again. For the 6th time in 5 years. I don't want that to be the end result of all of this.