Thank you!

It's been raining here for awhile, most of the month actually. The sun came out for a couple of days last week but then it went away. We're forecast to get more sunlight here soon though, that will be nice. I enjoy a good thunderstorm don't get me wrong but I like having sunlight too.

I've heard of schema therapy, I find it really interesting. Getting started on anything creative is always the hard part for me as well, once I start though it just flows.

You have referenced a lot of different models that your therapist uses in your posts, he sounds like he really knows what he's doing. Glad you have him, it sounds like you're doing a lot of important work and I admire that.

I have my therapist appointment today, we are both still getting to know each other(I've only been seeing her a month and a half now). I don't open up easily(I'm a paranoid person, it's not so much a feeling for me as it is a thought pattern instead, hard to explain) so it'll be a process... I'm okay with that though. I just need to be patient with myself and with her. She's a smart woman and when she read in my paperwork I had to fill out before our first session that I have schizoophrenia she did a bunch of research about schizophrenia(because she said that what she was taught about the illness is pretty basic and wanted to expand her knowledge) so she would know how to help me better. I like her a lot and respect her for doing that, no therapist I've had before has taken the time to learn more about my illness and how to best help me because of how my illness pervades everything I do in my life.